Tuesday, 27 April 2010

Emptiness







I watch the clock ticking by. It has encircled the time thrice already. I am still waiting for you. When I look out of the window, I see the neighbor's car pass by for the third time in three days. It is frustrating to say the least. 

I sit here all by myself thinking of how much I want to share my coffee with you; how much I want to see you smile. I know you that you smile every time you think of me and my  yearning for you grows stronger. The sugar cubes lie wasted just like the countless numbers of coffee lie  untouched on the kitchen table. Your chair awaits your presence just like I do. Your crumpled towel lies on the floor just as you left it days ago. It hasn't dried completely and I know you will complain once you are back. I long to hear your bickering over the fluffy piece of cloth. But I love the musky smell of you it has, which now slowly begin to fade. I wish you would come back soon. 

I set the table each night and stare at the empty plates. It seems the morsel of food won't go down my throat. I have no taste left, no sense of your touch to cure me of the numbness. I yearn for you. Every time I go to bed, it gets colder. I miss your warmth. I miss the way your arms closed around me, the way you cuddled me close enough to gently nibble on my ear lobes, the way you caressed my tummy. Your kisses brought back that burning desire within my soul to be devoured by you, to be become one and whole again. I miss your touch.

My heart feels empty. I am waiting and it seems to be endless. But they say its futile. You have left and there is no coming back. Your cup will remain untouched, the chair wasted without you, your side of the bed, cold, and me; staring at the door.

31 comments:

Himanshu said...

Yup..there is no coming back...so you started packing your bags..right? :)

Nikita Banerjee said...

Yup just a few more bags to pack! Lol

sujata said...

loved the expressions!!

Nikita Banerjee said...

@ Sujata

Thanks!

ZB said...

Nice thoughts.....But dont waste coffee..its so damn expensive these days. A nescafe redmug( cheapest coffee) costs $4.5....TC....:)

Nikita Banerjee said...

@ ZB

Point noted sir but this is fiction na!

Dew Drops On A Pale Lily said...

well written, such a simple topic very well described with amazing language.

storyteller said...

Oh boy I am impressed... too good!

Pavitra .... said...

wow!! So many emotions...beautifully put....lovely.!!

Nikita Banerjee said...

@ Dew Drops

:) :) :)

@ Storyteller

Thanks ya! I am blogrolling you!

@ Pavitra

Long time...thanks for dropping by!

blunt edges said...

"Your cup will remain untouched, the chair wasted without you, your side of the bed, cold, and me; staring at the door."
what an awesome closing line!

an unfulfilled wait...wonderful! :)

Nikita Banerjee said...

@ blunt_edges

yeh sab khayal bf se door rehne par aatein hai! :)

Suree said...

excellent use of words to convey the feelings... loved it ..

Adee said...

a wait that spans a day or two; or maybe its a never ending wait or who knows the lover feels this way whenever her love separates even if for a moment or two.
...
i know that i do.
and i know that u feel the same way too.

bindaasviti said...

i like it. a lot! keep writing the good stuff. following the blog now. :)

Nikita Banerjee said...

@ Suree

Thank you for dropping by!

@ Adee

Its frustrating ya! :(

@ Bindaasviti

Thank you! Keep visiting!

Vinnie said...

:)

iamyuva said...

sanity will return
senses will return
to keep you busy
with truths of reality,
with stupid silly daily stuff.,
and you can calmly rest with emptiness of thought..

Bullshee said...

Am I emotionally stunted if I can't be this.....emotional??? The word "needY" came to mind, but I decided it was pushing it...

p.s- thanks for dropping by my blog! Do come back some day!

Choco said...

Hey! This was refreshingly different and nice! I like! :)

As the Mind Meanders said...

Just read this... Where the hell does the depth come from... and the simplicity... and the impact...

damn... I am jealous...

Nikita Banerjee said...

@ iamyuva

Nice!!!

@ Bullshee

Needy is the right word here! :)

@ Vinnie

Long time...how you been?

Nikita Banerjee said...

@ Choco

Thank you!

@ Meandering Mind

You and jealous? Now that is a huge compliment! Haha dude you should be publishing and me, I am just a mere blogger!

Sneha said...

Beautiful! Dedicated to someone secretive ? :-D Or, do we all know the secret being such ardent followers of your blog?

Nikita Banerjee said...

@ Sneha

Haha...you should know! Himanshu is the guy in question. My fiancé. He is training in Hyderabad and I am here in Mumbai...

Sneha said...

So when will the wedding bells ring? No blog post of your engagement yet!

Rajat said...

I want you to come back but I know that you won't.

Nikita Banerjee said...

@ Sneha

A blog will be up soon! The official engagement will done soon!

@ Rajat

Hi!

tahera said...

I have no words for the way you express!! its amazing....

Nikita Banerjee said...

@ Tahera

Thanks!

Raj said...

ironical. catastrophical: the fact that you are thinking of leaving.

not the story, the story is A-class.

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